In Perpetual Pursuit

Abigail Leigh was born on 2/27/11 at 11:20 a.m.  She weighed 7 lbs, 10.8 oz and was 20" long.  She is absolutely beautiful.  I know many of you are confused, since you have read the pregnancy posts and the post pregnancy posts...but have been asking, "Did I miss something? Where is the baby?!?" She lives with her parents. Yes, I said her parents .   Abigail is my biological daughter; but I am not her Mommy.  Her Mommy is a fantastic person I am lucky to have connected with.  Someone that is ready to raise a child because she can make personal sacrifices to make sure that Abigail will have the best life possible.   Who's the daddy?    To eliminate any further discussion on this topic: Yes, I know who the father is, but he is not her Daddy.  Her Daddy   is the man I now entrust with her life; the man that I met in October and thought, "Yes, he is someone whose values my biogical daughter should have, and she will have a better life because of him."

I can officially say I'm back in the pool, and training. Monday I swam a set of 5x50, 4x50, 3x50, 2x50, 1x50 starting at 1:00 and descending. Tuesday I swam 5x100 @ 1:45. Wednesday was "off" Today...we shall see. Thinking about going 5-4-3-2-1 x 100's. Yes, I had a C-section 3 weeks ago. Yes, I feel fine. Yes, I'm being careful. If I wasn't being careful, I'd be swimming 3000 yards instead of 1500 on my first week back. My body is bored. When my body is bored, my mind is bored.  I love being an athlete.

Reposted from my adoption blog. Written to Abigail...during the first week after giving birth. <3 Genetic "Surrogacy" I am so thankful that I chose an open adoption early in my pregnancy.  I had time to get to know your parents and by the time you were born they already felt like family to me.  For the majority of the pregnancy I was able to mentally prepare myself for your birth and the fact that you would be going home with your mom and dad.  The first time I met your parents at the end of September I knew they were going to be your mom and dad, so pretty much the whole time I was pregnant with you I always felt like you were theirs.  I even used the term that I was a "genetic surrogate" to help explain to people how I felt about the open adoption.  I look up to your parents and how strong their relationship is to have gone through 12 years of being together and how much they deserve to be your parents.  I look at how they are together and hope someda

Just some thoughts running through my head today... Is Salem the right place for me to live...forever? I promised myself another 5 years to Piranhas....with the stipulation it would become a full-time job within those 5 years.  One year down...4 to go. The merger wasn't accepted; it it a hopeless goal and do I cut ties and move on or do I keep fighting for a program I believe in, that I've put my heart and soul into for four years.  I believe it was the step in the right direction this year...but I just don't see it making a full 5-year plan for me.   Love the GED job but it doesn't offer benefits. I'm getting old. I need benefits. But i hate teaching full time in the public school system.... I applied to be a 'guest' at KSU-Salem next fall. ...lordy lordy. School loans will be caught up so i can resume grad school next fall.  Yay! Is there really someone out there for me? I get frustrated in relationships so easily. Did i chose the correct path fo